Time Out (after 8 years)

It just occurred to me this week that I am a person in change. And I change more than I ever think I will change.

Circumstances shape me like time and weather and water shaped the Grand Canyon.

I think I might have been taught somewhere along the line that change isn't a good thing, that it's a mark of instability or worse. But I now think that change is healthy and inevitable to a life of growth. Steadfastness is said to be a virtue, but it is not a synonym for dogmatic. And it is not a virtue when I am unwavering about something either nonessential or where I had previously been wrong or stupid or uninformed or just simply young.

This blog has now been alive for eight (8) years. It really astonishes me to look back that far. Although there's not a lot in here that would be controversial (it's mostly my ramblings about the spiritual side of my personal life), it is nonetheless remarkable to look back and see things I thought or events or books or music that motivated me to write. I don't necessarily agree today with everything I've written over time; but I think it's important to leave those old posts up. I guess it seems to make sense to let myself in (and maybe others one day, if they like) on the process of my own personal growth. If I took down old posts, I might not remember the path that led to my current position.

Even the process of writing things down has formed me, sometimes over long periods of time. I didn't realize how much this was so until I read Jonas Lehrer's “A Book About Love.” That was a book worth reading.

This is personal evolution, I suppose. And I'm not just okay with it. I'm thankful for it.